Meditation or Chocolate and Coffee for Breakfast

One is reality-the other is not. I am in a desert of no sales right now in the shop. I have humans coming to see-around 100 yesterday, but not really any sales. I try to wax philosophical about it. This will happen I say. To everybody. But then I look at another shop.....let us say 'Sparkle Peach' and see they have 1400 sales in the same amount of time, and I think-well, obviously not everybody. Can those sales be real? Let's see-6 months x 30 days=180 days. 1400 divided by 180=8ish sales a day. If those sales averaged $20 each-that is 160 per day or 4,800 per month minus everything they do to make a profit. Well. I didnt get the job in Topeka. I feel that I am being stripped bare. I hope it is for some great purpose-like to be made pure. Or to prepare me for some great new phase. I get scared when I think the rest was an illusion and I am nothing really. To help counter this pain (this pain) I bought 300 dollars worth of supplies on etsy and had coffee and chocolate for breakfast. Om.